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I'm on the tablet right now so this is gonna be sloppy as hell.

Kinda wanna jump off a bridge, no lie.

I don't even understand why so suddenly I want to die... Sure, shit hit the fan earlier with my mom's car breaking down and the pest people fucking everything up, but that's not even that bad... Maybe it's how my mom snapped at me for locking the front door since I was gonna be upstairs with my door shut and unable to keep an eye on it in a neighborhood were people routinely get shot... I don't know. 

All I do know is that I'm craving a cigarette for the first time in a while, and I'm so glad all my knives are packed up because bleeding sounds like a good alternative to smoking. I don't really want to relapse at all but I'm so scared of what I might do to myself and there's no-one around but me and the alcohol and I don't know how long I can resist theses urges... This is getting so damn hard... 


Nobody would care anyway, right? It'd be better if I was gone... 

-Mona
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People would care. And even if you think that now, someday you'll find someone who thinks you hang the moon and the stars. And if you keep fighting there will come a day where you believe that you can hang the moon and the stars. Someone cares, and you need to keep going so you can reach a point where you love yourself.

Please, please keep fighting.
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