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Ref Sheet: Ava by Ximona
Ref Sheet: Ava
Hospital garb and civilian garb.
I'm still working on her back story and abilities, so don't ask. 
Just know that she spent most of her life locked up in a special facility so she has no idea what the real world is like, except through television. 

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United States
I'm Mona. I'm crazy, pretty much bipolar, and a total weirdo.
I love to draw, write, listen to music, play video games, read, sing, and be an idiot with my friends.

That's really all there is to it. Be nice to me and I'll be nice to you. Give a llama, get a llama. Live and let live.

So yeah. Have at, my lovelies.


:thumb57213782: When I Die by stamps-of-yore Repo stamp 8 by MummyMetaller
Bases and Dolls are art too by GriffinMyth But maybe some day..... by SirvanaRachana You shall not pass Stamp by 00DarkChocolate00 WTF stamp by xrealisticx
It's in my head, I swear by AssClownFish Fix Things By Hitting Them by fear-the-brilliance Depression stamp by ChocolateRayquaza
Winning Wars Stamp by KahunaSniper Cannot Be Given This Day by AssClownFish Lady Gaga Stamp by Kezzi-Rose weird dreams stamp by ShadowPhantomToph-xo
:thumb78938474: :Black Parade Stamp: by pixelated-rain Make Words STAMP by DarkRika Coconuts Migrate stamp by SailorSolar
I'm a regular Frankie fan by Faolin-MT Walter stamp by saucy-mo I am a Fred Fan by four-eyed-samurai
Bleach Renji Stamp by erjanks :thumb89595784: :thumb89823922:

Current Residence: Richmond, Virginia
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Roomy.
Print preference: BIG. x3
Favourite genre of music: mostly rock, metal, country, classical, and pop
Operating System: Windows Vista... :\
MP3 player of choice: Sony Walkman. 8D
Shell of choice: Er... Turtle?
Wallpaper of choice: Swirlies. <3
Skin of choice: Mine.
Favourite cartoon character: >.> I don't know.
Personal Quote: "No, not Voldey! He'll get dents!"
So it's been a while since I was last in here... and for good reason. Zach moved out in September 2014, taking the internet with him. Which is understandable, since it was in his name in the first place. 
I suppose I should give y'all an update about everything that's happened. Do you care? I'm telling you anyway. TMI warning.

So pretty much a month after I made that last journal about not ever getting laid, the impossible happened. I actually got laid. With a former schoolmate. On his birthday. It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't the best either. I barely felt anything the entire time. He didn't make me cum. At all. He was going to come inside but dear god, I stopped him in time. Stupid of me not to make him wear a condom, yes. Exceedingly so. There was a pregnancy scare about a week later, as my period was over a week late and I was afraid it might have been because of the sex (it's only a ten percent chance with pre-cum but still...). It was just stress. 
So after that (in June), he ended up living with us for a little while, until August when mom finally kicked him out. Over that time, he had tried numerous times to get me to fuck him again even though I had told him CLEARLY that I wasn't interested anymore, and that I had just needed time to figure things out for myself. I told him that I wasn't sure about my feelings, so I fucked him the first time to see if that would help clarify. It did, and I realized I didn't like him the same way he supposedly felt about me. I was honest with him about all of that, from day one. He also wormed his way into Zach's head, and tried to abuse me emotionally over that entire three month period. In August, a few days after mom had told him he needed to leave, he came by to get some of his junk that he'd left behind. I let him in only because I thought he was going to get his shit and leave. He didn't. He claimed he didn't want to walk in the rain, so I said he could stay until it let up. Big mistake. He started off by just hugging me, which was okay, even though I really didn't want him to touch me at all. But then he started going further and further, trying to start shit just like all the other times (which times, I had to physically push him off of me because he ignored me when I told him to stop- and would always promise not to do it again... four separate times he said that, that I can recall....), and finally pulled me off the couch, pinned me to the floor with his hand on my throat, pulled my pants off, and... well, you can guess where this is going. Thankfully he didn't get very far before I finally got him to leave me alone, but there was still unwanted penetration and bruises. 
Before you ask, no, I never went to the police. There was nothing they could have done. No evidence. My word against his. 
Anyway, after that, he did eventually leave. I told my mom about it and she asked if I wanted to call the cops. I said no, for the reasons above. I also talked with Zach about it, thinking he would be sympathetic, given how he would respond in discussions of rape years past. No. He looked me in the eye and said I deserved everything that T had done to me. I deserved it, he said. I led him on, so I should just shut up and deal with it, he said. A bit later, he brought T back again even after mom said she didn't want him there anymore, and there was a huge fight. T had the balls to say he never touched me, that he stopped when I asked him to, blah blah blah. Which was a lie. I admit I lost my temper and slapped the shit out of his face. SLAPPED. Open-handed. (He later claimed I punched him, which is impossible when you realize the bruise was on the right side of his face and I'm right handed- if I had actually punched him with my right hand, the bruise would have been on the left side). After that, Zach essentially moved out but left his shit until December. I haven't seen or spoken to T since the day of the fight. I've talked with Zach a few times but he's not the same guy I knew. So that friendship is pretty much down the drain. Completely. 
Everyone says that it's not my fault Zach walked out. I know that. My brain knows that perfectly well. But my heart keeps saying "I told you so." It always happens- my friends get sick of me and they leave, or I do something to fuck it up and they leave. Either way, they leave. And Zach was the one person in the entire world I thought would never do that. He promised me. He... fucking... promised... And look how it ended. Great job, Mona. 
On the slight upside, I have a job. It's a pain in the ass and it's exhausting, but at least I get paid. 
I feel like I should make a part 2 about the other things, since that's all just in my head, but... yeah. >.>
Good night. 
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: my fans.
  • Reading: nothing.
  • Watching: myself type.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: Cola.

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TixieLix Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the FF fave!
shadowlord19 Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday.
skullmonkey445 Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014  Student General Artist
Fluffle-Muffins Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014
Dunno when you'll see this, but happy birthday! OuO
Sobies516pl Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014
Happy Birthday! 
Ladycandy2011 Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014  Student Digital Artist





MelodiaMystic Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
happy Birthday ! 
IluvGaaraAndKimimaro Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday. Hope you have the most awesome day. Happy Birth Day Fella (messages) happy birthday to moo 
AskFoxy Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014… sorry for the lateness in showing you. ^^;
GDeyke Featured By Owner May 14, 2014   Writer
Thank you so much for the favorite! :heart:
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