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Mona
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I'm a total weirdo.

I'm 26. Taken. Pansexual Panromantic. Pagan. She/ They pronouns, please.

That's really all there is to it. Be nice to me and I'll be nice to you. Give a llama, get a llama. Live and let live.

So yeah. Have at, my lovelies.

~Mona

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Wow, it's been a long time since I wrote a journal on here... I guess I just stopped trying to chronicle my bullshit and let it fester instead. 
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Trigger Warning: mentions of mental illness, self harm, intrusive thoughts

I still don't know what's going on with my gender. Right now I'm just letting it go and doing whatever I feel like as far as expressing myself with clothing and makeup. It doesn't really matter too much anymore. 

Still stressing about IRL things. That's nothing new. 

Also I apparently fucked up a friendship in about 3 days. That's a record. We spent 9 1/2 hours in call the first day, and then after that... next to nothing. And now he's blocked me on Discord, and I'm waiting for him to unfriend me on Gaia as well. I can't go into details here because... well, it's personal. It's really, really not something I can talk about openly. Suffice to say I fucked up and I want him back as a friend but I know that's not going to happen. I just wish I knew what I did so I could apologize to him. Not that it would change anything, but I at least want to be able to say I tried. 

Intrusive thoughts are also a thing, and I'm struggling. I relapsed again last week, and in a very visible place. So far nobody has said a word at work or home, so either they're being decent people and ignoring it or they legit haven't noticed. Or they don't care. That's always an option. As for the intrusive thoughts... Well... it's a mess. It's more of a strong desire for something, rather than thinking "oh, if I do [random intrusive/ harmful thing]-" or anything like that. A strong, almost painful desire for someone to come beat the absolute shit out of me and leave me bruised and broken for days. I don't know why. I just... I want the pain. I feel like I deserve the pain. I don't know if that makes any sense. 

Don't worry. I'm fine. I promise. 

- Mona
  • Listening to: youtube.
  • Reading: nothing at the moment.
  • Watching: Bob Ross.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing.

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TaintedOneNinja Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2016   General Artist
Happy B  Day:cake::party:
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Happy birthday Squad Mom 2.0!!!
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Happy birthday!
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Happy birthday!! ^o^//
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How are you so good with digital stuff? I aspire to reach your level of talent one day!
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heres your custom !!!  i hope theyre alright u0u
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ohmigosh, they're adorable! thank you so much! <33
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im so glad you like them!! no problem!!!
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